hiii haiii helloo This will be my third entry!
I have been slaving away at my computer trying to get this shit to work for HOURS and thank god i finally did it, i have never struggled so much with something like i have struggled with making a freaking subpage omg. You guys almost lost me genuinely i almost gave up there and i already know im gonna struggle next entry too because i dont understand how i did it this time. The line of code isnt even there for any of these entries and idk how the fuck thats happening but it is. i cant complain too much though because at least it is working at all. It is currently 7am, i havent sslept and i didnt even see 3am at all, i looked down at my phone to see the time was 4:15 and was completely shocked because i thought it was still 2... it was far from it lol. Boyfriend was no help but its fair because ive made him do most (all up until this point) of the code for my website because i am simply not good at this stuff and it shows a lot. The only reason i decided to figure this out was because i have been ready to get this done and published and i am finally one step closer to that woop woop. I honestly cant believe i did it and im sure jack will be surprised too loll.
I have been quite busy lately and not just with work for once, ive been doing my hobbies more often after being pretty burnt out and i have felt so good because of it, i started writing more and am close to finishing my journal i started about 3 months ago (it usually takes atleast 6 months to a year for me to finish my journals) i have had a lot to write about and ive recently tried to open up a little more to myself and my journal as i am very bad with lying to myself even though i have nothing to worry about, its just hard for me to be honest with myself and im trying to fix that. I also finally wrote about my true unfiltered emotions for the first time in probably over 2 years which is crazy im very proud of myself for it and i hope that becomes normal for me again. ive really enjoyed writing this past week. it used to come so easy for me but it slowly got harder and harder so hopefully that changes for good.


on another note ive started a new craft that is gonna take me forever but i love the progress of it so far, ive been putting buttons on my lamp, i plan to cover the whole thing, ive threaded the majority the only ones i didnt thread are along the thicker part where my needle cant get through, in those places ive been using rubber cement though it does take a decent bit of time to dry so i honestly wouldnt recommend it. i just dont want to get my hot glue gun out for one button lol, ill probably do them all at once evenually but i get too impatient so ive done about 8 that way. i have also burned a few cds as i got a burner for christmas, i wanna start using them in my car once i get all my playlists burnt onto them. I need to make inserts for the cases theyr boring and clear at the moment i just havent had the time to decorate the cases but im excited to get to it...eventually.honestly it probably wont be any time real soon. But i will update when i get around to doing that. i dont know what it is but ive felt great lately and ive had like crazy insomnia im wide awake right now and i probably will be until 4-5 and then it will really hit me, luckily i dont have work today or tomorrow so it doesnt matter too much.I dont know whats going on with me right now tho ill probably crash soon but fingers crossed this is just who im becoming hopefully the insomnia part goes away ofc but the feel goodness can stay lol. Any way this has been a VERY long blog, my longest so far, but i love to talk so honestly expect them to get longer i just dont have the most to talk about right now.
Anyway this was my blog yayyy :3